In My Bones

I wanna tell you how I feel but I don't really know
I wanna eat my dinner without feeling like I've grown
I wish that we were seventeen and on the next train home
I do not want to hurt you but I'm scared it's in my bones

Making jokes to hide the fact that cards could always fall
Tying knots and taking shots and skipping shitty stones
Learning what the words mean seven years after the song
I do not want to hurt you but I'm scared it's in my bones

To grow and to shake
To know you is to know something safe
To cry and to say
I'm sorry that I'm brittle and broken today

Daylight's wasting, dogs are chasing, Robin's on the lawn
Mom got mad, yelled at my dad, 'cause he did something wrong
I was raised in California, poking dragons just for fun
I do not want to hurt you whispered softly through the phone

Catching up and packing up and borrowing your socks
Learned to tell you every single movie that I watched
Learned to be two people strung together, arm in arm
I do not want to hurt you, whispered softly on a call

To grow and to change
To know you is to know I'm not brave
To lie and to chase
The reason why you're hurting, and I'm hurting just the same

Ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh

To snap and to sprain
To bandage it up till it's stuck in one place
To cry and to say
I do not want to hurt you
But the truth is, I will hurt you
The truth is I will hurt you
I will hurt you either way